that's not love

quarrels. inconsideration. self-condemnation. helplessness. unworthiness. guilt-tripping. angry. tired. frustrated. depressed. uselessness. superiority. escaping. forcing. insisting. pressurizing. downplaying. accusations. claims. demands. rights. confusion. avoiding. confronting. impatience. tolerance. comparisons. flirting. dishoring. lashing. negativity. pessimism. sarcasm. controlling. possessive. selfish. stingy. compromise. comforming. compliance. unwillingness. restlessness. unaffectionate. hate. disgust. bitterness. uneasiness. annoyed. ignorance. obliviousness. unkindliness. perpetual sadness. boastful. deceit. pride. desperation. self-sufficient. self-reliance. denial. blame. ungrateful. ashamed. self-affliction. self-infliction. secretive. hopeless. faithless. withdrawn. hurt. loneliness. discomfort. cold. harsh. cruel. hostile. indifference. betrayal. infidelity. fornication. adultery. jealousness. envy. greed. gamble. games. backstabbing. falling. crash. burnout. collision. destroy. nothingness. emptiness. superficiality. left behind. mess. refusing. misunderstanding. misinterpretations. broken. violated. stubborness. gossip. torture. calculative. vengeful. fantasy. emotion. hinder. weak. drained. lust. suffocation. drowning. constant absence. invasion. infringment. unforgiving. indulgence. weary. worrisome. that's not love.

Wishing for the Cloths of Heaven

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

W. B. Yeats

Bittersweet

For each ecstatic instant
We must an anguish pay
In keen and quivering ratio
To the ecstasy

For each beloved hour
Sharp pittances of years
Butter contested farthings
And coffers heaped with tears

Emily Dickinson

in a while

broken promises
life evolves around a phone
absent caresses
sheetless bed; chilled to the bone

spaced, deranged
pale and gay as smoke
unseen motion

walk of a drunkard’s memory